I Feel Congested.....

Noooo, not that type of congestion, I'm talking about my mind from all of these class assignments and tests. This coming week has somehow quickly become hell week for me. I don't even have a full time class schedule (I'm terrible at focusing and multitasking, and I've probably committed a criminal offense in procrastination on multiple occasions, so I try to keep it small) so I know others are feeling the pressure way more than I am, but why is it almost like all the teachers seem to schedule tests and important assignments at the same time? What's funny about it is that a lot of the teachers usually have the same intentions to keep a work load off of their students, and end up still causing their students to have test (or the equivalent of one depending on the class) and homework assignments each due for all of their classes in one week, and not know it lol.

The good thing about it sometimes is that you end up with no major assignments for the week after, so YAAAAAAAAY!!! for next week if your schedule ends up like mines should. If you still can't catch a break, I give you my condolences and I'll give you a personal pat on the back if you want lol.

........ Goes back to doing one of many homework assignments ...... : (

UGH!!!

I have a bunch of ideas in my head for this post, but I guess I'll talk about the one bothering me the most. Being shy and awkward is sooooo frustrating. My problem isn't even so much being shy, it's the awkwardness that bothers me. For instance, I'll see someone I know or want to speak to, and I freak out inside thinking they won't speak back or want me to speak to them and I end up saying nothing.

Earlier today I saw someone eating during class, and I wanted to say "Where did you get that from? It looks good." Instead, I kind of just stared at him, then he looked at me, and I stared a little while longer and said nothing. It felt so awkward, and maybe it sounds paranoid, but I feel like my combination of shy and awkward causes people to think I'm either stuck up or weird lol.

I guess I'm too much of a worry wart.... It was nice getting that off my chest. Bye!

Passion

I really didn't expect a "general education" class to make me think about what I consider my passion. The past two visitors and what I'll call the class motto of "passion" have really made me think of what it is that I would wake up at 4:30 in the morning for lol. I thought I wanted to do something that involved fixing computers because I've broken SOOO many of them. My current major is engineering technology, and I thought it was going to teach me how to fix computers or whatever, but the longer I've been there, the more I feel out of my league. At this point I'm very sure that by (at most) next fall, I'll be in a different major.

I came to college to find something that I don't mind doing that will allow me to live comfortably and take care of my parents. Now, part of me has actually started contemplating actually looking in to taking singing classes at school, since it's the only thing I feel like I'd be passionate about. I like reading people and trying to determine personalities so I'm likely to try psychology, or I might become an IT and troubleshoot computers or something. Either way, I've been given something to really think about so I guess the mission was accomplished lol.

At first I thought I was the only one still trying to find their niche, but listening to some of my classmates (possibly you lol) made me realize I wasn't. Kind of comforting.....

Sidenote: Oh, and I got my earphones. I read that they're very durable and the very high average of the reviews with how many people had reviewed them and the price swayed me to these. I LOVE them, but my only problem with them is that if it's hot and I have them on, my ears are going to get hella sweaty lol. (Thanks for the suggestions)

Hmmm...

It's 11:30, I'm listening to 2NE1, and I can't think of anything to blog about, so randomness here we go lol. I actually want to do a post about my personal thoughts on blogging and possibly a more in depth version of an intro I guess, but I guess I'll save those for later since I'm feeling more random right now.

My refund check came earlier today, YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!! I want to buy these, I need new headphones, but $150-$200 for some headphones? The realist in me knows that NO headphones are worth $200 but the impulsive brat in me wants "the best". Any good alternatives or anything? I'm sick of needing new headphones every 3-6 months.

Having my second library tour was...... interesting? Ms. Swan (Oh, hi *waves at you*) being around is definitely going to keep it from being boring lol. For the record, I read the Lois and Katrina papers, and knew what they were about (focusing on writing your feelings instead of structures and not being afraid to acknowledge dark, disregarded, or hidden things you otherwise wouldn't), but I hate speaking in front of lots of people. It makes me feel like I've been shot in the stomach by butterflies, and I'm already regretting putting that. It's now 12:01 so I guess I'll close out on that note. Bye!

Sidenote: The Lois paper was a nice read, but over half of it had nothing to do with the point. Not a big deal, but that just sort of bothered me a little lol.